~ I'm ashamed I already fell off the "Everyday in May" boat. I really wanted to make it. I also hate being such a Debbie Downer *wah wahhh* in my posts but I really like to keep things real. So the first part of today is just that...real. Second part, I will get back into this May blog challenge and share some happy things ~
I'm feeling lost.
I have been struggling with depression, anxiety, and OCD for awhile and I thought I was getting it under control.
But lately I have felt lost...
Lost in life, friendships, relationships, family, and even just everyday things.
I haven't been able to set my mind straight, get thing done, accomplish even the smallest goals like cleaning the house.
Relationships with my family, friends, if I even have any, and even my own son.
Being a stay at home mom has its advantages. Some people even like to think they don't do anything. But right now I feel like because of being one, I lost who I am. What I like to do, who I wanted to be. Why did I even go to college to get a degree if all I'm going to do is chase around a kid all day. I'm sorry if that sounds ungrateful, but it's hard. Hard giving up your life to cater to just one tiny person.
I love my child, and I would die for him. But what happened to me? Why does it feel like I have nothing to turn to?
I'm just lost. And that's the best way to describe it.